This is where things start to get reeeeally scary, so please go no further if you feel you aren't *ready* for the hard truth, of yourself, of the entire Universe! If you continue to read here, you do so at your own risk and are 100% responsible for anything you experience as a result.
Ending the post... There's an X, Two / Too! And an ...O...
... I wrote the following:
"Scary proposition...all the unknowns, as you set out on your quest for the Truth!
Where do you begin? How do you gather up enough *courage,* and muster up enough *trust,* to allow the process to unfold for yourself? How do you even know WHAT to trust? Or WHO to trust?
The WHO is *YOU!* =)
Next... *How to* discover that courage and trust *all within YOUR very own heart and soul!*"
Courage! Trust! What? Who? How and Where? (That's a lot of *spooky* mustering!)
The Answer to "how to" *access* within yourself the courage and trust you feel you need, to get yourself on the way, and that stays with you like *a special friend* to lean on, all within yourself, all throughout your journey, is for you to begin *doing the (most basic) work* that will provide you with a ~ glimpse ~ into the Universal physics...of yourself! If you can get past this first test, you are well on your way! =)
Your courage will begin with your choice to continue, and will grow exponentially, along with your needed trust, as you take the necessary chances that lead to every next *aha!*
I told you that not only would you discover your own personal truth, but also the Library of Universal Truths, all within your very own self, and that you could *do that work* privately, in your own space and time. =) It's true, but this is where you need to promise yourself, and the Universe, that you will handle what you learn RESPONSIBLY! I say "promise the Universe" because the Universe has a built-in protection mechanism, and it will "bite you in the butt" in your attempt to violate its natural laws! In other words, YOU are the one choosing to *do the work,* and so you need to be sure you never set out to hurt anyone with the information you find yourself having, acquired through the *work* you do on yourself! You will quickly understand this with this very first *Quest Test!*
As it is said in the movie, "The NeverEnding Story," which I highly advise (the story of Enlightenment, disguised as a children's movie!): "You must go alone! You must leave all your weapons behind! It will be very dangerous! (The journey will not be easy!)"
Quest Test 1:
~ YOU ~ are the only one on your own personal quest for Enlightenment, so keep your discoveries to yourself as you work on yourself, so you don't inadvertently hurt other people, bring chaos upon your relationships, or unconsciously and inadvertently reveal to others things about your personal private self that you didn't intend to share with them! The following *work* is to be done in complete privacy! You are moving into multidimensional language and parallel universes (yes, the real ones!), and you are not going to immediately *realize* what all is happening at first. So be sure to keep your work for your eyes ONLY!
Begin with a notebook (or similar) that you can keep in a private, uninvaded place, and a pen. If you choose to use a pencil, that's okay, but remember that you can never lie to the Universe, ever, and so if you start erasing what you've written in an effort to escape truth-revealing confrontations with yourself, it's only going to get harder as you go (because you'll keep running into them until you resolve them, and they get more complicated, multiplying exponentially as you progress on your journey)!
Ready to begin?
Write a paragraph or two about your mother! Say whatever you feel you need to say, positive, negative, or anything in between.
When you are finished, go back over it and read it again. Spend some time with it, reflecting upon the message you have expressed. If you need to, put it aside (in that safe place) and go back to it when you are ready. Add to it as you feel the need, or leave it as it is for now.
When you are comfortable with what you have written, and are ready for the next step, begin again. This time, cross out everywhere you have made a reference to your mother, and write "my ultimate innermost self!" 0.O Yep! *Now* try to read what you've written! Remember...no fair erasing! =)
Everything in life is a superimposition, a parallel to a parallel to a parallel to a parallel...just like mirrors reflecting mirrors. You can see this if you hold a mirror up to another mirror, and watch as they each reflect the other into layers upon layers, parallels upon parallels...on and on and on... See those layers as yourself, your mother, your grandmother, your great-grandmother, your great-great-grandmother, and so on... =) Isn't that extraordinary?
Your physics is an inescapable imprint of your mother's physics, and it doesn't matter if you never, ever met your mother, if she's gone, if you haven't seen her in ages, if she lives on the other side of the planet, if she gave you away for adoption, etc... The Universe doesn't miss a thing, so while you may not have noticed, the Universe has never forgotten!
So, what is it exactly that you are supposed to be hearing, when you go back over what you've written and hear yourself within what you've expressed about your mother?
Well, contemplate that for a while, spending time with what you are *hearing.* We'll come back to it as we go along. If you are trying to understand what you are supposed to be *hearing* when you replace your mother's actions and attributes with your own "ultimate innermost self," try getting some *quiet time* for yourself to sit in meditation, and *listen* there...
=)